Kai Benton

2005 - 2005
LocationWolverhampton
Age3 months
Cause of DeathCot Death/Sudden Infant Death Syndrome
Date of Birth31/05/2005
Date of Death07/09/2005
Visitors6,002 since 23/11/2008
Creator
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kai was one of 4 boys he was the most beautiful and precious gift to me his daddy and his 3 big
brothers. he would lite up the room with his smile and he was very much loved and adored by all
those that met him and knew him in his short life.this is kais story.................

our beautiful little boy kai made his entrance on may 31st 2005.after a very traumatic pregnancy and
labour our little man entered the world weighing a whopping 8lb 4oz.kai was a very well contented
little boy who enjoyed his little life to the full.the smiles he would give would light up the
room.kai at the time was one of 4 boys, his three elder brothers just adored him. kai was a golden
baby compared to his elder brothers as they were all milk intolerant.kai was a pleasure as he took
his milk and slept through the night.we couldnt have been more happier with our new son.as the weeks
passed kai was like any other normal baby.he laughed and cooed and was so pleasant.the night before
kai passed i sat and watched all my boys together and thought how proud i was to be there mommy.its
a nite i will never forget.kai went to bed that night like he always did and woke as normal on the
morning of the 7th sept,my husband came down stairs with him so not to wake the other children.kai
settled down back to sleep so my husband lay him down.a short wile later i awoke to the pierceing
screams of my husband yelling me to call 999.as i ran down the stairs i came across my husband
frantically trying to help my little boy breathe.as we anxiously waited for the ambulance to come i
turned around and noticed my 3 other children sat on the stairs watching all that was going on.my
husband went with kai to the hospital as i waited anxiously for a relative to come and get the other
boys.a short wile later my eldest son began to cry i told him not to worry and that kai would be
home in a day or two.unforunatly that never happened shortly after reaching the hosital i was told
id lost my baby boy he was 3 and a half months old.the next few hours were a daze i had to come to
terms that my baby wasnt coming home. i also had to break it to my boys there little brother wasnt
coming home.in my head i wandered how one minute your baby is here gurgling and cooing and the next
they have gone in a blink of an eye.we had the usual inquest and it came back as sids sudden infant
death syndrome aka (cotdeath) in our minds this makes us so frustrated as theres simply no signs to
this killer you cant see or detect this condition its so unfair , you never think its going to
happen to you.kai will always be our little man we shall always love and miss him. we did have 2
special gifts from our little man thou his new baby brothers cole and codey.kai god blessed us with
you for only a short time but in those months it was the best time of our lives. we will never
forget you or your cheeky grin forever in our hearts we love you mommy daddy conor cain charlie
codey and cole x x x x x x x x

to all that visit our angels site please feel free to leave a message or light a candle as this
helps us keep our sons memory alive.


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our smiling prince

hello baby i didnt think that it would still hurt like this 4 years on..i thought as the months and years passed by it would get a little bit easier. it doesnt feel that way....we all miss you so much son and the terrible memory of today lives with us each and every time we wake up. its as fresh now as it was then....we wish with all our heart we could change thngs and you were here with us all where you belong....one day we will all be reunited untill that time kai please watch down on us all and send us lots of floaty kisses and angel hugs to get us through our days.... we love you so much baby boy words will never reveal ot express how much.. catch our kisses son we are sending you them from whats left from our hearts.... love you always baby brokenhearted mommy daddy n your brothers....... x x x x x x x x x x

Jen Benton Mommy To Angel Kai (Mummy) September 7, 2009

hiya little man

ohhhh big day today been 4 years since you grew those big blue fluffy wings hey kai, as much as you will be haveing fun at your angel party, can you take the time to be with mummy and daddy today and mo-mo as its his first day at school, such an exsiting time for your brothers but a sad time too well i am going to give you your gift and i will be back later mwahhhhhh auntie jool xXxXx

Julie Hayes (Auntie) September 7, 2009

4years tomo little man never knew you but i speak to your mummy and she misses you so much as do all of your family . you grew your wings before u had the chance to get to know all those around you , your thought about all the time . sleep tight little kai xx

Donna Mason September 6, 2009

The Pit of Grief

The day my child died, I fell into the pit of grief. My friends watched me struggle through daily life; waiting for the person I once was to arise from the pit, not realizing 'she' is gone forever.

The pit is full of darkness, heartache and despair; it paralyzes your thoughts, movements and ability to ration. The pit leaves you forever changed, unable to surface the person you once were.

Some of my pre-grief friends gather around the top of the pit, waiting for the old me to appear before their eyes, not understanding what’s taking me so long to emerge. After all, in their eyes, I’ve been in the pit for quite sometime. Yet in my eyes, it seems as if I fell in only yesterday.

Not all of my pre-grief friends are gathered around the top of the pit. Some are helping me with the climb out of the darkness. They climb side by side with me from time to time, but mostly they climb ahead of me, waiting patiently at each plateau. Even with these friends I sometimes wonder if they are also waiting for the pre-grief me to magically appear before their eyes.

Then there are the casual acquaintances, you know the ones who say 'Hi, how are you?' when they really don't care or really want to know. These are the people who sigh in relief, that is my child who died and not theirs. You know ... the 'better them, than me' attitude.

My post-grief friends are the ones who climb with me, side by side, inch by inch, out of the pit of grief. They have no way of comparing the pit climbed to the pre-grief person I once was. You see, they started at the bottom of the pit with me. They are able to reassure me when I need reassurance, rest when I need resting, and encourage me to move forward when I don't have the strength. They have no expectations, no memories and no recollection of how I 'should' be. They want me to get better, to smile more often and find joy in life, but they also accepted the person I’ve become. The 'person' who is emerging from the pit.

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Tricia Donaldson Kierans Mum September 1, 2009

I miss you my Angel..
My Angel above
You watch down on me from heaven
And blow me kisses with love

I know you are safe..
And are not alone
But please try and call me..
If God has a phone

copyright� Jackie Thomas 23/08/09.

Angel Ishbells Parents (GTS Friend) August 28, 2009

hello my baby

hello my darling boy hope your playing safely up in the clouds with all your angel friends.... mommy n daddy wish you were here to play with your all your brothers...we miss you so much kai its been nearly 4 years since the angels took your hand and led you to that wonderful place up in the clouds. WHY!!! we ask every day yes you are one special little boy but you should never have left us...you should have been left here to play with your brothers and be eternally loved by us your family... our hearts are empty baby and nothings ever going to fill the hole thats left where you should be.we did all we could for you n your brothers so why was it you !!! we want you back baby so much. we thought that the pain would go away but everyday your not here with us it hurts even more.if we had one wish it would be for you to be home where you belong in the arms of me daddy n your brothers. keep us safe baby till that day we meet again.. we will always have a broken heart till you fill it again someday. got to go baby cant see for tears... love you always darling forever n ever hugs and kisses coming to you kai love you sooooo much baby mommy n daddy x x x x x x

Jen Benton Mommy To Angel Kai (Mummy) August 18, 2009

how i miss you

My broken heart..
Will never mend
So lots of kisses..
I shall send
We think of you..
In a better place
With beautiful wings..
And a smile on your face

Every day is a struggle you see
Trying to cope..
So please help me

How do I cope?
I do not know
My heart is broken..
So that goes to show

I can't except you are gone
I need you here..
Please keep me strong
Stay by my side..
Show me the way
Help me to cope every day

I love and miss you so much..
And I always will
Since you have been gone..
Time has stood still

I think of you in heaven..
With Gods Angels up above
Please my precious Angel..
Watch over me with love
love from Robert and christine xxxxx

copyright� Jackie Thomas 01/08/09.

Angel Ishbells Parents (GTS Friend) August 13, 2009



31ST JULY 2009

. ♥ ANGELS OF THE SKY .......... ♥

BEAUTIFUL ANGEL OF THE SKY
IN OUR HEARTS YOU DID NOT DIE
THE LORD TOOK YOU INTO HIS EMBRACE
HE LOOKS DOWN AT YOUR PERFECT FACE
. ♥ .
HE GIVES HIS NEW ANGEL A LITTLE KISS
HE SAYS MY LITTLE ONE I PROMISE YOU THIS
THAT I WILL GIVE YOU WINGS TO FLY
NOW YOU ARE FREE TO FLY SO HIGH
. ♥ .
SPREAD YOUR ANGEL DUST UPON THE GROUND
TO LET YOUR FAMILY KNOW YOU ARE STILL AROUND
FOR I WILL KEEP YOU SAFE IN HEAVEN WITH ME
YOUR SPIRIT SAYS ON EARTH FOR ALL TO SEE
. ♥ .
WHEN THE PURE WHITE BUTTERFLY GOES DANCING BY
THAT IS WHERE YOUR SPIRIT WILL LIE
SWEET LTTLE ANGEL OF THE SKIES
JUST SEE HOW HIGH AN ANGEL FLYS......
. ♥ .


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GOODNIGHT SWEET ANGEL. X

. ♥ copyright� Rosalind Roberts. ♥


Jude Swaddle (Friend) July 31, 2009

to kai from auntie jool xxx

right little man some jool to kai time, first off i love you, i wish i could of got a cuddle, but i never :) but you sent me because you need me to watch over your brothers and mummy and daddy didnt you, and guess what when i get a hug off them there is one off you isnt there kai?? yes i no baby, well as promised i am keeping them all strong jools thinks of mummy as a sister and shes a blessing to me so thank you kai my little munchking i will make sure she smiles again i promise and daddys doing good too hes a star i no you no this already kai coz you are every wear always love you just a few words from you to follow :)


my name is angl kai i play in the sky,
some pepole find it hard to beleve, an angel
like me can still breath, but i am here every day
giveing you the strenth to go on, me angel kai will always live on, for i am the stars in the sky as i fly very high, i look over mummy daddy and my brothers too, my message is i will always love you,
i have come to jools to wight this because i no jool will never miss, you are my world, you are my smile till we are all together when we are all old there will be many of story to be told, hold that thaught in your heart because thats the place, im there and always will be hearts together were hugs apart but mummy and daddy im in your heart love kai xxxxxxxxx

Julie Hayes (Auntie) July 29, 2009

I DONT WANT DIAMONDS
I DONT WANT GOLD
ALL I WANT IS YOU TO HAVE AND TO HOLD
I WANT YOU SO BAD TO BE BY MY SIDE
SO I DONT HAVE TO KEEP MY FEELING LOCKED INSIDE
INSIDE MY HEART WHERE NO-ONE CAN SEE
I SO WANT YOU TO BE PART OF ME
TO BE BY MY SIDE WHEN THINGS GO WRONG
KEEP ME SAFE AND KEEP ME STRONG
I WANT TO BE HERE FOR YOU TOO
TO SHARE PRECOIUS MOMENTS THAT MUCH IS TRUE
TO GIVE YOU LOVE ALL YOUR HEART CAN HOLD
THAT TO ME IS BETTER THAN DIAMONDS OR GOLD
copyright Ros Roberts

Angel Ishbells Parents (GTS Friend) July 17, 2009
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